The Ishtar Forest

Floating...nowhere to land, nowhere to stop this endless motion in a stardust sea. I feel lost, my mind is restless, filled with guilty, always racing,  jumping and screaming. Judging what i did wrong, what did i say? what looks did i gave? Was it all a waste? did my time was not important too? That's the curse of this galaxy, everyone leaves after the beginning. With nowhere to go i scream until my blood reaches my lungs. I shout and break my throat. No one is there to see me, not anymore, they all went to their stars . Seems that i was the last to know, i cannot expect diamonds if i can only offer copper. My hands are numb, eyes are heavy, my breath is no more and now i am one with the stardust sea.

I hate to be a cliché, a stereotype everything that she told she hated,every aspect of what it was confided on me, all of the aspects she specifically told me it was reproached in a creature now live reflected on my skin and every time that i shift under this moon that's burned under myself like branding on an animal. Her words are like echoes spinning and penetrating my head like silver bullets made to pierce and crack my bones, reaching to tear my flesh, her eyes are hunting me through a promise that i repeated in my mind over and over. Running! and screaming! while my body change and my bones get their animal form! i keep moving through the forest while i fall and keep falling in something that cannot be, something that has failed for me more times that i can remember. The change happens under the cover of the night, i let myself go and the wolf comes out. Tortured, tired, primal and saddened the beast gets to be all that i'm not. He represent the creature that gets to...

I come from shame and self hatred I usually hide from peoples faces Normally wearing masks and closing myself off Those masks are not to come out no matter the pain No matter the torment, no matter the sorrow, Taking my mask off will admit that you're vulnerable and vain. Never take off the mask that hides your deepest truths But what if i did, what would you find beneath the struggle and the shame? Well...turns out that i'm tired, i no longer live my life for fear and anger I want to advance, to fly away until this crumbling mask is no more! Only by putting one feet in front of the other i will live my journey  By reaching peace with my own being i would accept the love from others. So i tried, a fae took me out, sat with me and traded stories until the stars started to fall and the wind stopped howling She made me look into myself and questioned my fear to be happy. I told her that i was there to listen to her and give her advice as mu...