The Ishtar Forest

Es triste...este sentimiento no desaparece, aun cuando te veo y pienso en el pasado solo te veo ahí, tumbado en tu cama de piedras moviéndote lento pues la energía y la furia de antes se apagan con cada dia que pasa. Viejo y cansado postrado en esas piedras que te dan alivio y te hacen dormir con ese sueño eterno que expresan tus ronquidos, nada veo ya de la violencia y el terror que infundías en mi ahora solo queda alguien que me da lastima pues me ha alejado con todas sus fuerzas. Nuestros lazos si es que existieron, han sido meramente de sangre. hoy en dia no hago mas que pararme en el umbral de tu puerta para comprobar si aún vives pues solo en las noches es cuando nuestros caminos se cruzan y nuestras miradas se entrelazan. Ahora solo somos 2 personas bajo un techo separadas por la eternidad. nada queda ya del padre que marcó a su hijo con miedo, castigos y trauma. hoy solo queda un gigante caído que se desvanece en las memorias de un descendiente decidido a poner f...

I see a crystal palace where two wolves are facing each other One is white as snow and the other one is black as night Dark necessities emerge from their eyes while i watch They fight and clash to name a victor, they fight for my soul One is the good in me being consumed by the wicked The other is my evil struggling with the the light  Both bite and bark and cry and scream trying to tip the scale One is light, is kindness, is charity, is humble, is warm, is love, is empathy and is truth One is Darkness, is sorrow, is pain, is anger, is suffering, is agony, is regret and is pride Many moons ago i lost my way and i have been feeding both wolves at once I have no balance so i ride the one that's on my mind each day I won't shy away of letting them free but i regret not caring for them As they are my protectors, they are everything that i am  I am no longer in pain, i no longer suffer but i do struggle  I watch each wolf and rememb...

The war is over, my face lies stoic on the battlefield while the mud engulfs my feet with every step, my arms are heavy and my heart aches for  who i was and who i have become. Is raining right now and the first rays of the sun touch my face with a warm feeling. all of my sorrow and gloom are gone and now only my thoughts remain. I used to be a warlock lost in a forest weeping for a love that i was not able to find, my powers were many and my adventures took my everywhere but my quest for love created sorrow and pain where my heart was supposed to be. Only the stars, the moon and my thoughts where the ones making me company and prolonging the loneliness. that's when the war started within the two versions of myself started in a never ending battlefield. I know that when that love finally comes i just need to accepted since no one would ever love me if i was not able to accept myself. my hatred, my anger and my disgust were all things that linger while i was thinkin...